There is no such as genuine merriment through accident.
I decided to come up with Valentine post in my blog. This is not the post I intended to be the second in my archive. This is out of my astonishment and a bit of agony (yes, I'm still agonized). I will try to exemplify what should the victim of betrayal and brokenness do after surpassing the abyss of devastation and be at least happy for her felon and her hush-hush chap.
Healing Potion
When I had excruciating experience of oblique betrayal, I constantly pray for quick remedy. I'm still in the healing process but I’m moving on. During the yuletide, I tried to be creative and resourceful to at least anesthetize the pain the betrayal caused me. I came up with my very first and very lamenting blog; introspection, and make the very best moment with my family and most of all - be closer to my Supreme Being as my unseen and constant confidante. I guess I have felt all the emotion s what should be felt when you’re in pain caused by betrayal and brokenness. At first, I had never felt of any quantum of odium after my discovery about the newest couple in town; but when I was starting my self-therapy, hatred towards my offender started to run in my veins, maybe this is the effect of the least reality could happen. She was constantly present in my thoughts when I was sleeping. There, we were talking, it was so vivid that we were talking but so very vague what we were talking about; no clear words I could understand; but the conversation had a sense of explicit inquiries and explanations (duh, what should be asked and be explained). She's been a living effigy of betrayal to my mind with sweet and innocent face. But I never let this hatred ruled over me because I know I deserve to be happy.
I have to control the hatred virus that runs in my veins ( when I'm writing this blog, the virus slyly runs in my system and I feel it once in a while). I'm just grateful there are friends (thank God I got some) and close ones who genuinely understand my dilemma after I confided with them and for some who have read my first posting. Their presence increments the remedy I needed.
Quantum of Indignation
This is justifiable; very valid; very normal; hey Im a human being, remember. I felt I was stabbed at the back and in my chest – betrayal and brokenness; that’s how I came up with my first post. Sour-graping? Bitterness? Whatever. Maybe. As long as I would not end up with very harsh and disparaging actions towards anyone especially to them. I just acknowledge what I endure at this moment.
Constructive Remedy
Some would think I might not move on if I would continue think about them and come up with the blog like this. The heck! Im just using them beneficially for my own remedy I needed for me to move on and move forward. Because I believe acknowledging the truth is one way to get rid off the hindrances to start anew and realize that there are better people to deal with.
Godly Glad
There is no easy way to get out from brutal despair but to accept it; accept that it can happen to any human being and unfortunately I was spotted to taste the predicament. There is always painful truth for each day I accept it especially the couple have now been matrimonized and be recipients of the forthcoming great wonderful gift from heaven that would make them one complete happy family.
This is not obloquy to them; this is my one way of friendly felicitation..
